Question

To be yourself...

or

to be what people expect you to be.

That is the question.

To be myself!

There is something I really liked about Juan Antonio Gonzalo in Vicky Cristina Barcelona (2008), and that is that he is really himself; He expresses his feeling about everyone he loves and everyone he doesn't. He doesn't need to pretend as someone else.

Vichy and Christina both are afraid of saying what that is happening inside them, especially Vicky. Juan doesn't care about what might happen if he shows his feeling though. So he is very relax and natural. He is happy when he seems happy and he seems blue if he has a problem.

I'm really interested in being like him. I've been trying to be myself lots of times, but I've never been succeed. And now it became so hard to stand it anymore. I think it is because that I have a lot of things to lose. So I'm trying to miss these things to be able to be like this.

What does tomorrow mean?

Well, I watched "Groundhog day" the movie again with one of my friends, and I felt that I have some more words to say about it.

As you know, if you've been watched it, our story's man (Phil) loves a lady who called "Rita". She is real cute lady but, she thinks that Phil is a jerk. In fact, she is right. Phil isn't a perfect guy.

When that happening happened, Phil tried to indulge her in everything and he made some kind of success because after this long time, Phil knew all the things about her, all of his desires, hopes, favorites and everything. However, that didn't work too. He realized that something else should be changed: "Himself".

In all of these boring days (yesterday), there was no tomorrow. because Phil was the same Phil. In fact, the only one who could make "today" "tomorrow" was himself. Not the time.

If we changed, tomorrow is tomorrow but if not, there is no tomorrow in our lives and we live in a boring yesterday for ever. This movie made me remember a saying that says: "The man is prejudiced if his today would be the same as his yesterday."

Change

The life bacame hard these days. I don't know. Maybe I've changed. 

Look from outside

I hate to be like some people who think that they are different with others while they are just a "type" and there are a lot of people like them. Unfortunately many times I thought like this and after some days understood the reality.

Usually I find this when I come out from the situation and look again at myself from outside. Everything is different when you watch yourself from another point of view. In these cases I wish to leave myself and be someone else but it’s always impossible!

Today is one those days!