To be myself!

There is something I really liked about Juan Antonio Gonzalo in Vicky Cristina Barcelona (2008), and that is that he is really himself; He expresses his feeling about everyone he loves and everyone he doesn't. He doesn't need to pretend as someone else.

Vichy and Christina both are afraid of saying what that is happening inside them, especially Vicky. Juan doesn't care about what might happen if he shows his feeling though. So he is very relax and natural. He is happy when he seems happy and he seems blue if he has a problem.

I'm really interested in being like him. I've been trying to be myself lots of times, but I've never been succeed. And now it became so hard to stand it anymore. I think it is because that I have a lot of things to lose. So I'm trying to miss these things to be able to be like this.

Strange Reflection

Sometimes it is necessary to be alone. It makes us to be honest at least with ourselves and do not forget who we are. When I talk to myself it differs to when I appear in public, even in front of my friends.

It's kind of scary to look at the mirror and see what others don't see that. You are another person and maybe no one knows that. It means you are so alone and all of your friends are friend with someone who isn't you.

There were just a few people who know me, but we couldn't be with each other for a long time. Life stopped us at a point that every one of us had to leave his or her heart and move on... and we did it. We did it, but some parts of our lives got stuck in the past.

We are trying to forget about all those nice days and gradually we're finding ourselves so different from that time. Who knows? Maybe the other one feels alone too. Maybe there is someone else who feels bad when meets a strange face in the mirror.

What does tomorrow mean?

Well, I watched "Groundhog day" the movie again with one of my friends, and I felt that I have some more words to say about it.

As you know, if you've been watched it, our story's man (Phil) loves a lady who called "Rita". She is real cute lady but, she thinks that Phil is a jerk. In fact, she is right. Phil isn't a perfect guy.

When that happening happened, Phil tried to indulge her in everything and he made some kind of success because after this long time, Phil knew all the things about her, all of his desires, hopes, favorites and everything. However, that didn't work too. He realized that something else should be changed: "Himself".

In all of these boring days (yesterday), there was no tomorrow. because Phil was the same Phil. In fact, the only one who could make "today" "tomorrow" was himself. Not the time.

If we changed, tomorrow is tomorrow but if not, there is no tomorrow in our lives and we live in a boring yesterday for ever. This movie made me remember a saying that says: "The man is prejudiced if his today would be the same as his yesterday."

Groundhog day

It's not important that why is it happen. Even who cares about that is it possible or not? But what would you do if this happened to you?

You just wake up in a morning and after a while you find out that yesterday is repeating and you are in one of worse days in your life. You are in a awful terrible place that you hate it and you want to run away from there.

You just try to go out of there but, you can't and everyone says that you should wait until tomorrow. You are coming to a hotel and going to sleep, hoping for a better tomorrow but, when you wake up again at 6 o'clock, you see this is yesterday again and you remember everything you did in it, and you know everything that will be happen today…

I watched this movie tonight and I loved it. It has a good score in IMDB and it deserves it.