You were wrong

I'm tired of thinking of future. Why am I doing this? Why am I so afraid of being regret after a true decision? Who've told that I have to be this worry about what I cannot do anything to change it?

This has been always my problem since my father told everybody that my son is someone else, he is a wise boy, he is more than his age, and he always knows how to do the right thing.

But, I'm not the son whose father believes in him. I'm not. I'm not the one who makes the best decisions. I'm not the one who lives in the real world. I'm not the one who I am. I'm just pretending to be a good guy. And this is the biggest failure. I hate it.

A good year!

This year didn't start well for me. The first months were awful. I wasted a lot of time and I was always sad during those months. These late months were great, though. I changed a lot, and I made a couple of good decisions.

But the funny point is that my life has started to speed. It is moving a little faster than I am! Changes are happening one after another and opportunities show themselves to me every day. And I don't know what to do. I have some problems with managing my time but I'd like this situation better.

Your day

I haven't forgotten. Well, I wanted to congratulate you but I couldn't. And I hope you understand me. And for your information, the hardest part is to choose a flower…

To be, or not to be. Who cares?!

To put our head through our busy life doesn't change any fact. We want or not, some things are real. And we can do nothing to them. Maybe we had better open our eyes and face the truth. Maybe the life is not supposed to be the way that we think it should be.

You can feel it in your heart but you can't have it. Some people would fight for that, some others not. No matter which side you are on. What matters is that you never could make it. It's sad. I know. But it is what it is. Just don't kill yourself. OK?

Changing

When I review my pass, my thoughts, I see that ten years ago I had no idea about what I am now. I used to think about my future but now after these 10 years I am a totally different person from who I was thinking that I will be.

So, I believe 10 years later, I will probably be a really different person from what I think now, and none of my imaginations about myself will become true. I know it is scary but this is what it is. The future could be better than I think now. Who knows?!

In the name of Poverty

There are a lot of places on the world that we've never heard about them or we just know their names. What do you know about "Chad"? Just a name? Or something more? It is almost never talked about countries like this.

Republic of Chad is one the landlocked countries located in center of Africa. It means that this country has no water-way to out of its borders. And just lands are used to trade and communicate with other countries.

Chad is a really ancient country. Its history started from 7th millennium BC. People of Chad are living in poverty. Most of them are still rancher and farmer, the same as people we have in our villages! They've being independent since less than half a century. Chad was one of the France's colonies before 1960.

Economic situation is managed badly in this country. Chad was rank by The United Nation's Human Development Index ranked as the 5th poorest country in the world.

Over 50% of Chadians are Muslim. Thank to variety of people and languages in Chad there are a lot of cultural points and developments in this country. A lot of kinds of local music are played between them and they have a national museum that is visited a lot by tourists every year.

Anyway, I think Chadian people are living in bad conditions and the worse thing is that their name isn't heard so much around the world in mass Medias.

Question

To be yourself...

or

to be what people expect you to be.

That is the question.