You were wrong

I'm tired of thinking of future. Why am I doing this? Why am I so afraid of being regret after a true decision? Who've told that I have to be this worry about what I cannot do anything to change it?

This has been always my problem since my father told everybody that my son is someone else, he is a wise boy, he is more than his age, and he always knows how to do the right thing.

But, I'm not the son whose father believes in him. I'm not. I'm not the one who makes the best decisions. I'm not the one who lives in the real world. I'm not the one who I am. I'm just pretending to be a good guy. And this is the biggest failure. I hate it.

A good year!

This year didn't start well for me. The first months were awful. I wasted a lot of time and I was always sad during those months. These late months were great, though. I changed a lot, and I made a couple of good decisions.

But the funny point is that my life has started to speed. It is moving a little faster than I am! Changes are happening one after another and opportunities show themselves to me every day. And I don't know what to do. I have some problems with managing my time but I'd like this situation better.

I'm afraid

I was sure, but now... you know...