Change

The life bacame hard these days. I don't know. Maybe I've changed. 

The life

I like some nights like this night that I can laugh for nothing and be happy for some little things. Light music… dark tea… smell of rain from the window… you're reading your favorite blog and smoking cigarette… and these are enough! The life is just this.

Look from outside

I hate to be like some people who think that they are different with others while they are just a "type" and there are a lot of people like them. Unfortunately many times I thought like this and after some days understood the reality.

Usually I find this when I come out from the situation and look again at myself from outside. Everything is different when you watch yourself from another point of view. In these cases I wish to leave myself and be someone else but it’s always impossible!

Today is one those days!

Females!

One day I was admired myself, because I was - wrongly - thinking: "I know girls!" But day by day I lost my sureness about this opinion.

Now I believe that I don't know girls at all. They are so unknown to me and their behaviors are not expectable!

For example, they like you exactly when you think that they hate you and they hate you just at the time you think that they fallen in love with you! I'm so confused!

The photo is from here!

Always Revolution

Every four year, we have presidency election in Iran. Every candidate chooses a motto for himself and says it in his speeches.

These mottos are good scales to find out the situation of people's livelihood in a country. When most of candidates always talk about "changing", it means that people are not in a good condition; because they reaction these mottoes and they think someone should come and make a new revolution.

The same situation is streaming in U.S.A and because of that, people voted to President Obama who was saying: "Change can happen" and he won.

This can happen and sometimes it's great, but it's not good always. A society sometimes needs a revolution but if a 30 years old society could answer these promises, elites should be worry.

10th presidency election of Iran is coming and now plans of candidates are more important than mottoes, and it makes me happy. Islamic revolution of Iran now is grown up country and starting the 4th decade of its life.

Like a Wall

Sometimes when I watch my behavior in past, I feel stupid. I was honest and very stupid. I'd shouldn't tell you anything that was in my heart. Men always do like this and I don't want to act like women anymore. So I'll be silent after this and you'll never find any different between me and wall!

Plant of Leon

There are some movies I haven't only watched them; I've lived with them. One of them is "Leon". I've watched it many times and every time, decoded some new things in this movie.

I see character of Leon as a symbol. He is not only a person. He is a human with some properties. His personalities could be find easily in his plant that he call it "his best friend". Leon's plant is so similiar with him: "It has no questions, has no roots..." exactly the same as Leon.

And when Mathilda came to his life, everything changed. At first, Leon tried to trow Mathilda out of his life, but he couldn't. In fact, Mathilda changed his life for ever. In one of the last scenes, when the polices attacked their room, Leon said to Mathilda: "You'll never be alone Mathilda". 

In this scene Leon seems so different, because he has a new life, because he has root, because he sleeps on bed. 

Anyway Leon died, but his beliefe will never die. Mathilda is the keeper of Leon's beliefe and will save it from destruction. Now Mathilda is 12 years old and living in a school out of the town and growing up, but after some years Mathilda will return as a young lady and Leon's plant will be a grown up and strong plant too. So we are waiting...

Prison Break!

I have an important test this Friday and still have alot to study! I started studing source books around two months ago and I didn't anything fun during these two months. 

Four day later from now, I will be free and have alot of plans to take pleasure of my freedom! First of all I will start to watch "Friends" again from the begining. Also I have many movies to see and many musics to listen. 

My mother called today and asked me to go home. She said my sister will return from Iraq on Friday or Saturday. I can't wait to meet her and her little children. Wish me a good test on Friday!

Roomate

You don't know what does it mean that you have a roomate who has alot of secrets and many unknown calls everyday and never tell you anything about them, although he likes you and believes himself as your best friend.

you'll never can protest him and request him to share anything to you and this is in a case that you recount every little event in your daily life for him; because you don't have anyone except him.

sometimes you lose your tolerance and become mean to him, but when you think about your request, see your self selfish and he is right. But it's still hard to live like this.